Revisiting Chemistry (and oldies)

First off, a little preview of what I’m probabdly going to look at after the Chem midterm, if I do well enough to make myself reward myself.

All right! I’m pumped and I’m going to study chemistry seriously. Thank you Boxtorrents. I’m sure it hasn’t been licensed yet. The scans seem to have come from a Taiwanese edition. I have CDisplay installed. Now all I need are grades.
Before I start talking about VSEPR things and electrons an Lewis Diagrams I would like to note that I deleted Boys Be off my hard drive. Some of the episodes managed to get their video re-encoded to the correct length, but some others weren’t too lucky. I decided to just burn the original episodes whose re-encodes turned out to be unlucky. Unfortunately, the unlucky reencodes with the faulty audio outnumberd the okay encodes such that when all was said and done, I was still 3MB over DVD-R. I really wish my laptop DVD burner could overburn. So even though it had quite a bit of nostalgic and motivational value, I wiped it clean off the face of my hard drive in order to free up space for… uh.. quite a few things. Ah, how times change.

BTW, Advanced Micro Devices (AMD, the guys who make the Athlon CPUs) posted a 396 million net loss for this quarter. Uh oh. They need to whip out something way above Barcelona. And Intel is offering this new CPU designed from the ground up to compete with AMD’s Geode LX in the OLPC that apparently seems to be quite a success in America.

n.p. 325. Dream – [Hikaru no Go #01] Get Over

Okay let’s do some Chemistry. Let’s draw the Lewis diagram for H2CO3. I failed miserably. Okay, CH4O. All right, I got it! But what horrible music.

n.p. 368. Jo PD ft. Lee Jung Hyun – [Jo PD in Stardom Version 2.0] fever

Oh yeah.

You’d better start reading my blog next week if you want anything significant to read about, cuz I sure as hell am not going to do anything until then.

It’s time for Dinner

But as usual I’m not hungry. I haven’t attended many Chemistry lectures, since they all start at 8am, and I just can’t be bothered nowadays to wake up at that time. Doesn’t that suck major balls, especially since I have a midterm coming up next Monday? Yes, it does. I’ll also have to make sure that my Math doesn’t slip behind too. Why is being a student always so hard?

In other news, I tried to recompress LIME’s Boys Be subs so they would fit onto a DVD along with Akira. Akira kicks ass. Kaneda does too. But I can’t have them pushing Boys Be out of the way…. the problem is Boys Be Episode 04 had this audio sync problem. Once I adjusted the sync to correct the problem, the sync would be dreadfully off in another part of the episode. Without any audio offsets, the audio would be in sync for the first half of the episode, but not in the later half, where the characters’ mouths start moving about 2 seconds before the audio does.

I tried a lot of things, but right now I’m reencoding the video. Perhaps Episode 04 was when I was experimenting with AviSynth’s trim() function, and somehow a few frames got lopped off somewhere, even though I’ve gone through the entire ep and basically found nothing anomalous except for the audio not in sync. Anyway I’ll reencode the entire video stream, possibly fixing its length and thus fixing the problem.

Ah, that really shouldn’t be my concern at the moment. I really have to catch up on Chemistry.

n.p.  26. Leningrad Philharmonic (Mariss Jansons), Mikhail Rudy – [Rachmaninov Orchestral Works CD5 #01] Tchaikovsky: Piano Concerto No.1 Op.23: Allegro non troppo e molto maestoso

Friends

I tend to think quite a bit in bed. I wonder if I’ll make it to tomorrow’s Chem lecture at 0800, but I have a few thoughts about friendship here.
.. it’s really not working out as a blog post. And it’s 2am. And I really miss this one girl. Damn I’m weak.

ritchan is dead

A: Why’d he suddenly stop blogging all of a sudden?

B: Maybe he’s just really affected by harsh comments. You know, the ones on his posts about Kenny Sia and the like.

C: Yeah dude, he was just sucking up to Kenny’s ass. Except that it was way above his reach, so he was just blowing cold air.

A: I see. It’s quite a pity… I was hoping he’d criticize my blog next. I’d get some extra hits that way.

C: Fuck that guy, man, nobody ever reads his site.

B: You can say that again.

I’m not dead. I’m just busy with midterms. And watching a bit of Touch (how I discovered it) in between. It’s a pretty good anime, I’ll post some caps and what it’s about as far as I’ve watched (reading that site I linked spoiled it all for me… it was trying to show me how deep the plot was, but instead it spoiled it). I’m waiting for ef – a tale of memories Episode 2 fansub to come out (I watched the first half of the raw, which coincidentally features the only interesting characters of the show) and Gundam 00 Episode 2.

339. Ian Dury & The Blockheads – [Best Number One Singles In The World Ever] Hit Me With Your Rhythm Stick

Minimalism: a work in progress

After seeing psycoB and his ports of XP msstyles, I decided to get on the bandwagon and hack some msstyles. Fortunately I had foreseen this day and had downloaded UKIntel’s guides and reference images on which images go where. I also learned a couple things about Vista: namely that everything is stored as a 32bit PNG.. or was that a 24bit PNG? I’m not sure, but I don’t care. Anyway I decided that what Vista needs most is a totally black theme (like Lakrits for XP or DAV5 or CORE, all downloadable from Deviantart) so I set about making one (well aware that someone might just finish a similar looking design before I come out with mine).

I don’t know about you guys, but I make/choose themes that suit my wallpaper. And I have quite a few wallpapers.

This is a Keiji Gotoh wallpaper, with this work in progress msstyle for Vista. I installed Windowblinds and found that it decreased my battery life by a whole hour. Well, actually, half an hour compared to ordinary Aero. And a lot of the Windowblinds styles were created for XP (the official WB themes, as usual, suck) so they look really bad if you open up a window or something, especially with Vista’s totally different Explorer windows.

So basically I think the taskbar is the best looking part of the whole thing, which is why I’m putting it up. I haven’t found out how to modify that arrow down there by the taskbar, though, so if you mouse over it (which I will not do) you’ll find it’s the stock Vista icon. When I have more time I’ll skin the minimize, maximize and close buttons. But not today. Why? Because I have a midterm coming up Monday. Duh. And I haven’t eaten dinner yet, thanks to this POS I spent 3 hours figuring out.

When nothing really happened

I realized that sometimes there are just days where you can’t really think of anything to post. So I created a new category for this. I’ve been socializing around today (pretty much all there is to talk about) and although I haven’t made any progress, I’ve established connections. A guy on my floor just installed the UT3 demo and we played it on his 2nd gen Macbook Pro, the Santa Rosa one with the Geforce 8600. With everything cranked up, UT3 ran really smoothly. I’m impressed with the 8600, but we couldn’t game online at all. According to him, Bioshock was boring, and Vista sucked. I kinda agreed.

I got XP SP2 installed in a virtual machine just to compare it with Vista. I still haven’t decided whether I should switch to XP from Vista. I came up with a few reasons why XP is better:

1. I can apply lots of good looking visual styles even without Windowblinds. And no matter which I choose, none of those styles will affect my battery life.

2. I don’t have 60+ processes all screaming for CPU time. Though really I don’t know if this is a significant argument, since I don’t know whether I see the effects of this in real life. Vista runs pretty well on my Core Duo.

3. Applications work. This includes Nero 6.6 (my favourite Nero of all time), modo (all versions), and I like Diskeeper 9. Diskeeper 10 is a load of hogwash.

4. This is a very small point, since I have vLite, but XP itself uses very little disk space compared to Vista. Also, I can control how much space XP uses for its System Restore feature. However, this is easily mitigated by the fact that all those patches for XP really add up.

Really, I can’t think of any more reasons to switch to XP. However, I really miss the first point.

Now as for why I should stick to Vista

1. So I don’t waste my time getting the computer to the way it was.

2. More themes should be coming out soon…. hopefully they’ll look better.

3. So I don’t regret wiping Vista when I install XP (really, this feeling of mine goes around all the time).

Really, I should just stick with Vista all the way so that my grades really don’t get affected. Then again, Vista sure is ugly…. and all the Windowblinds themes out there don’t work properly with Vista’s UI changes. I’ll install Windowblinds 6 on XP and see what I’ll get. Perhaps I can get XP to look like Vista! It’s obviously impossible to make Vista look like XP… then again Vista is running smoothly right now, it would be a shame to just ditch it.

Oh, whoa dude! Guess it’s a good thing I haven’t switched over to XP yet… some awesome guy called psycoB at deviantart.com has made tons of themes for Vista Basic! I’m running Wasabi right now and I can tell you it looks way better than all of that Aero crap out there. Minimalism will remain on my desktop forever.

I forgot to mention this really weird girl who is taller than me, was completely drunk, rather loud, and smoked, and launched into long diatribes about… herself? Very interesting, I said. Sometimes she just blabbers too much I ignore her and start talking to someone else, but then she keeps on talking. Weird girl, all right.

EDIT: ef – a tale of memories 02 has come out. I’m downloading it, even though it’s only a raw. 300kb/s… awesome! I hope I don’t set my standards too high lest I go back to Malaysia one day.

Watched the first half of the RAW. My brain usage peaked at 100% while watching, my Japanese algorithms aren’t very efficient. However, I was able to understand 40% of what they were talking about! Awesome… we learned that this Hirono guy is a mangaka and he doesn’t go to school often. Yup. That’s what I learned. I like his arc (along with Miya Miya’s) more than the one eyed Chihiro and the weird prince wannabe guy. Fortunately for me, it seemed like the latter half of the episode was simply about the latter couple, so I stopped at the right place.

Boring General Update

Not much is going on here lifewise. Homework? Haven’t had much time to do some of that, but I can assure you I’ve been revising all the time, on chemistry and physics. I especially need to revise these two topics, since I’m getting better grades in Math already, but my physics and chem skillz haven’t gotten up to par yet. That’s what weekends are for.

On the subject of anime: I’m glad I downloaded the entire series of Scrapped Princess and watched it on my own, because the schedule for this Friday’s Anime Club showing doesn’t include anything from Scrapped Princess. This is really strange… if they show the episodes, they should at least let it show until the series ends! Oh well, I can use the Club to find out about new anime that I haven’t watched before but wouldn’t like to waste the bandwith finding out.

5:00 – 5:45 ~ Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha A’s 3 – 4
5:45 – 6:30 ~ Gintama 3 – 4
6:30 – 7:00 ~ Fooding Break
7:00 – 8:30 ~ Bleach movie: Memories Of Nobody
8:30 – 9:15 ~ Kyou Kara Maou! 1 – 2
9:15 – 10:00 ~ Romeo x Juliet 1 – 2 (We will only show this if we have spare time)

The only thing I’m interested in is Lyrical Nanoha As, because I heard it was the bomb, much more so than StrikerS (LOL ALL THE GIRLS GOT A NUDE TRANSFORMATION SEQUENCE BUT THE BOY TRANSFORMED FULLY CLOTHED LOL), but let’s check out Gintama, Kyou Kara Maou and Romeo x Juliet anyway. I’ll bring the laptop there for, uh…. productivity.

I am a long way from getting a 85% grade average.

EDIT: I just watched Nuke’s H264 sub of ef – a tale of memories. Apparently the company behind ef was also behind Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei, which makes me real interested in this. It’s called Shaft. As you might know from watching Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei, Shaft has a very distinct style, and it carries over, even into a love story. I don’t know what the original visual novel was all about, but I know that Shaft sure did a great job making it seem interesting. Things like the spinning bicycle wheel, the cracking red wall, the mask outs, and the black and white portions really made this interesting, even if they seem to have no significance whatsoever. I haven’t said this for some time, but I’d rather watch the anime than check out the source material. Kyoto Animation has some serious competition, indeed.

Planetarian: a small planet’s Reverie

EDIT: By using the same Word document to write this post, I actually erased a previous post! Crap.
If you want to play Planetarian, you must set your Windows system’s non-Unicode locale to Japanese. Otherwise, it actually crashes. Yes, even with the English patch. I’ve had that happen before… on a fan-translated Chinese patch too!

There’ll probably be some spoilers. You’ve been warned.


Verdict: Although this may have its flaws (and not much replayability) I’m going to rank it up there with Ever17: the out of infinity. It’s definitely better than Narcissu, for reasons I will not pollute this post with. If you’re going to read only two visual novels in your life that don’t focus on dating or hentai, read Planetarian and Ever17: the out of infinity. These two are classics.
Continue reading Planetarian: a small planet’s Reverie

I love discussion!

So what exactly are people saying about my posts on Kenny Sia?

Ah Pek says:
“The best way to give a new blog a good kickstart is to criticize some celebrity blogger”

For someone who has lived a mere 6,570 days, you have really grasps this point well.

But please don’t go “guiding” others when you are still groping to find the way yourself.

I just added another hit to your stats counter. Say Thank You to Kennysia for it, because I doubt i will be back for anymore of your “guidance”.
Suanie says:
what is a blog? A blog is short for ‘web log’. Essentially it means that the blogger who owns the blog can make use of it anyhow you want.

I guess Kenny is an easy target, because of his popularity and perceived worth with thousands of readers etc. It is however unfair, and not anyone’s place to want to ‘guide’ Kenny to the right ideal/direction/utopia of blogging. Because there is no such definition, and honestly there is a lot more to blogging publicly, and not remaining anonymous, and being very known for, than a lot of people think.

You are welcome to your views, of course 🙂 after all, that is how you chose to utilise your own blog
I don’t like smilies.

kate says:
well, as a reader, i haven’t ‘gained’ much from ur criticism of Kenny Sia. Get a life before u hit on others.

etsee says:
so what’s your intention of criticizing some well known blogger?

you happen to crave for the attention he’s having, but just dont know where to start rite? you are just another kennysia wannabe.. but u r far from it dude.

he’s doing in style, and you are moaning hell lot about it. hahah.. what a joke

That’s quite a stomachful there. Here’s what they mean:
1. Your post was totally meaningless and gave me nothing insightful. I only read this because it’s about Kenny Sia.
2. You’re just trying to piggyback on his fame, aren’t you?
a. You’re a joke.
b. You’re attention deprived, and on top of that, you’re helpless.

And somebody called Suanie agreed point by point, though she’s probably implying the same thing (with all those smilies and winkies, I really can’t tell).

At the moment I’m feeling a slight tightness around my chest and throat. It’s probably something called indignation, but let’s try to look at this objectively and see if what they’re saying is true.

1. Your post was totally meaningless and gave me nothing insightful. I only read this because it’s about Kenny Sia.

For me it was a rather useful post. I say this because it generated controversy and forced me to think about the situation at hand. AFAIK, I’m not the only person to write to Kenny Sia about his degenerate blog. But judging from your responses, I seem to be the first to have posted my inner thoughts up for you all to rip and criticize. I can only assume that since you criticize, you had this all figured out in your head in the first place. If so, I am honoured by your comments, and I hope to hear from you again as my world views mature through blogging. (Here’s to you, Ah Pek and Suanie.)

2. You’re just trying to piggyback on his fame, are you?

Kenny did say something on his email about my mindset. If I think that he’s trying to please his readers, then no matter what he posts I’ll always think he’s trying to please his readers again. Even if it’s about that vibrating condom review. So I’ll waste no breath in trying to assure you that really, I’ve had a problem with his blog changing from the start, I’ve blogged multiple times about it, and only this time I’ve taken it public.

a and b: You’re a joke. On top of that, you’re helplessly deprived of attention.

Yes, I want attention. I want to be the first to say this out loud, that Kenny Sia’s blog is not what it used to be, and I posted this on petalingstreet.org with the intention of finding people who thought the same way as I did. Nothing wrong with that. On the other hand, my being a joke is quite a personal comment. Let me roll up my sleeves here.

I’ve noticed for quite some time that humans like to rag on other people and put them down when they don’t act as expected. Oh damn, that striker just didn’t position himself in time to kick the ball into the goal! How stupid! Kerry backed out of the election in… what… 2004? How stupid, irresponsible of him! What the fuck was that driver thinking when he drove right in front of me like that? he must be retarded. What the hell is Bush doing in Iraq? What’s with Osama anyway? and the American currency? He’s gotta be replaced, that hopeless white-haired baboon.

Finally, who the fuck is this anonymous guy who claims that Kenny Sia sucks and then later finds himself wrong and then apologizes? He must be stupid! He’s even stupid enough to post this on the internet so we can all laugh at him!

If there’s one thing I learned from sending all these emails to Kenny and wasting his time, it’s that no matter how absurd the situation, there probably was a reason behind it. Think about it: a daring, interesting, innovative new blog comes on the scene, gets linked by the Star. Suddenly his hit counter rises, and the quality of his content… decreases!? Actually it’s not daring anymore. It’s not even innovative anymore! It just tries to pander to the public, oh sorry, I didn’t mean to offend you. Perfect conspiracy theory behind this, yes? Well perhaps: but I was reminded of the fact that Kenny’s blog started influencing his family and work life too. The sentence that struck me most in his reply was:
People can say shit about me all they want. But if people say shit about YOU in front of YOUR MOM, have you ever thought about how she would feel? Because that has happened to me so many times in the past and it does not feel good I can guarantee you that.

Notice, though, that even though I empathize with him, I still say his blog sucks. Why? Because to me, it really does suck. I always thought that he had a choice to make his blog what it was. But after reading this sentence, I felt it would be impossible. I’m sure that somewhere Kenny still wants to blog as raucously and without rein as he did before. Perhaps he’s still doing so, in some blog that he hasn’t told us about. Humans will be humans. You’re right, Suanie. I was unfair in criticizing him, because he really didn’t have a choice.

And as for you, etsee, it may please you to know that I am a joke, and that you are a bad joke. For while I have gone above mocking other people through learning this lesson, you are mocking me while I am learning. The beauty of this, of course, is that you are mocking me, while I learn and mature in front of your very eyes, on the very medium by which you mock me.

Thank you to all of you who responded. As you can see, I don’t usually get many comments – I’m gratified that you see enough in my posts to comment without attacking me personally. Yes, my posts may have had no meaning for you whatsoever… but they certainly do to me. Let’s argue again sometime.

Kenny Sia Criticism, Part 2

What is a blog? It is anything you make it out to be.

He replied, and he’s admitted that he’s changed. He’s not apologizing for it though – good, a respectable move on his part. He’s explained why he’s trying to accommodate his readers: he experiences a social backlash if he doesn’t, personally.

Sure, it’s easy for people to tell me write all I want. Don’t care about what other people say. You are not the first one to said that to me.
But you are not the ones picking up the pieces. I am. If I wrote something that offended people, I have to deal with the consequences. REAL LIFE consequences. Not you. How would you like to pick up the pieces for me for a change?

I don’t think he would mind that much if I posted one more snippet:
People can say shit about me all they want. But if people say shit about YOU in front of YOUR MOM, have you ever thought about how she would feel?

Let’s think about the ideal for a second, and compare this. For me, the ideal (whether it’s right or wrong) is that a blog should be a private, yet public space for sharing thoughts and ideas with other people. Since you are allowed to think whatever you want, you should be allowed to write whatever you want on your blog. Even if it offends people. I mean, it’s inevitable. I don’t try to avoid it. It’s probably part of being human. In fact, sometimes I try to provoke such a situation so that a discussion can occur (thank you everybody who commented on my last post.), for discussions help me, and hopefully the other participants, straighten out what’s right and wrong for them.

However, Kenny’s blog isn’t the kind of vulgar, casual, and very entertaining site that it once was. Today, Kennysia.com has become like a conversation at the supermarket. How are you? Oh, I’m fine, thank you. Oh, that boy’s cute. Oh yeah, I just got an iPhone yesterday. Wow, really? It’s pretty cool – hey man you gotta show that to me someday. Oh, you know, I went to Vietnam the other day. Wow what did you do there? I drank a shot of snake blood with its beating heart. Wow, gross!

I don’t know about you readers, but there’s one thing that I know for sure: I don’t need a website to do this. I can have this kind of trifling conversation with just about anybody in the whole wide world, assuming of course that I would care to tell them what I did this past weekend. This isn’t another side of me. It’s the same old, same old side of me that you can see anytime you meet me in real life. This isn’t another more vulgar, more morbidly interesting, exciting, side of me. This is… just me in real life. Hell knows I meet enough people in real life and have real life conversations with them – and therein lies my problem with Kennysia.com.

However, this ‘problem’ is rather unjustified. After all, he faces real social pressure on him. We all behave the same under social pressure: we become more polite, less offending, we try to fit in. At least Kenny didn’t do this because he wants to. We would also accommodate, or sign out and delete our accounts, if we were that well known and faced the same kind of social pressure that he does today. For Kenny, his blog has become another part of his real life encounters with people, no longer his outlet for madness and jokes that I once loved to read. I used to think: dude, Kennysia.com isn’t even a blog anymore. It’s kinda like… a newspaper, or some kind of weird excerpt from a diary, thoroughly censored and edited to suit public tastes. But a blog means different things for everybody. For me, a blog is where the other side of me comes through. Where I post my private thoughts and invite everybody to discuss, to see if I’m the only person on earth who thinks like that, and if so, why. What interesting events I’ve been through (for me, that includes life, certain games, and which anime I’ve watched). For Kenny’s blog can no longer strive towards the kind of ideal that I uphold, and perhaps to a certain extent the kind of ideal that he upheld when he first started out blogging.

Therefore I apologized instead. Because I didn’t think that it was so serious that his blog could affect his entire social life. He’s probably having a rough time of it now, but since it’s not his most important part of life, we can safely assume that he’ll live, at least online, long enough to post a few more filler posts in the meantime.

Oh yeah, BTW, Kenny, about finding my new favourite blogger: I don’t have a favourite blogger. In fact, I usually don’t read blogs.

That clarified quite a few things in my mind. For instance, it made me ask myself these questions during breakfast: what is an ideal? How far should you go to pursue this ideal? How do you know if your ideal is right or wrong?

1. An ideal is something that guides you towards the right path. It cannot guide you all the way.

2. As I said, it cannot guide you all the way. You must make choices depending on the situation.

3. You don’t know if your ideal is absolutely right or wrong, for there might be no such thing. The next best thing might be to ask what is right or wrong for you.

By sending these emails to Kenny, I was trying to guide him towards the ‘right’ ideal, the one which I had been striving for, and the one which he probably had been striving for too. He’s hit snags, though. Your ideals cannot guide you all the way. Must think of another example for this, but I’m sure there are many valid ones out there.

I began to wonder if this ideal was right, or wrong. I first thought of what the internet was built for. Then I wondered if perhaps the meaning of the internet is the meaning assigned it by each user. It’s pretty easy to figure out my thought process from there.

I’ve grown through blogging, especially through this post, where I can lay my thoughts down in black and white. I hope you readers gain something from this post, too.